The Mind of a Genius

A poem for those who speak too much…

The silence of the moon

knows no bound

the words it speaks

never are around

cruel it is

ears of conscience

voice of reason

never an audience

only a fool

such as i

would not consider

silence i defy…

The words we speak are only there for a fleeting moment. GIve others a chance to speak for themselves, and never hinder them from telling their feelings. If we do, we are even bigger fools than our words. For the silence of the moon, we know what it is to have a voice so grand and not an ear to listen.

What the hell you say? Well, i don’t care!!

   This month, i’m celebrating the "I-Don’t-Care-Day!!" Why? Cause i don’t care!! And what a perfect mascot for the festivities, is the one, the only, ero-sannin and full-time perv himself!! JIRAIYA!! Carefree, reckless, but still responsible, this man is the man of the month!! And why again?! Cause i Don’t Care!!

Jiraiya to Orochimaru: I don’t want to teach geniuses, because they pose no challenge for me to teach whatsoever!!

ERO-SANNIN ROCKS!! Sasuke you can just suck Orochimaru’s … snake!!

   I’ve known myself to be a helpful individual (have to work on that humility side ^^…) since time immemorial. My helping hands come naturally, i don’t know why, but it does. Simply put, i like helping people, and it satisfies me so. But when we talk about altruism, i couldn’t help but wonder: am i altruistic? What drives a person to be a saint and help others in pain?

   Yes, yes. Another philosophical hoo-haa. But what is Altruism, for those who want to understand, i’ll tell you. It is the simple act of helping others for no personal benefit whatsoever. DING-DONG. As if that wasn’t easy enough. Actually, it gets tougher from there.

   Say, you want to help someone. Some cute girl dropped her (ehm) keys, and sure, you’d want to help her. Altruism? Wait a minute. Why are you helping the girl again? Three reasons that i know of, and not just those three. One, to show off (well since its a girl or a boy in your preference "YAOIMUSTDIE"…!) Kinda like this… > http://i8.photobucket.com/albums/a50/itsuki51/konoheaven.gif well you know what i mean. There is a goddam reason why you’re helping an individual, and most likely it’s for your own satisfaction.

   Philathropists. Helpful, Yes. Humble, hell no. Ever heard of the Walt Disney Foundation? Or the Don Something-something public school of martial arts? Helping others, even at any cost, if marred by self-gratification, is not altruism still. Then, what is true altruism?

  It doesn’t exist. Once, Jesus did, but no more. Because we all have reasons why we help somebody. To fill our spiritual bucket. To look good in front of people. To leave a legacy that says, we, are helpful and are heroes. To win the heart of that person. But to help just so thinking the person would be happy, no. Find it deep in your hearts, you know its true. It is to hell impossible to give mercy and not want anything in return.

  But don’t lose faith in goodwill and mercy. It may be true to a sense the things i said, but be assured, as long you are helping people, at least the thought of providing them with a better life is what counts. Believe me, i know, i understood this truth just earlier. It doesn’t matter believe me.

  You are the best person in the world, because you are you. Everyone understands it quite well, and matters not what you want to be. Spread your own light into this dark world, and be altruistic, to a sense ^^.

— Ah-Nuld got sehxy masols!! You cahn’t beat Ah-Nuld!! Arrrr!! —

   I was sad. I remembered it for the first time. I was lonely, uncared for. I mistook the laughs of many to insults. I have learned a lesson so hard, you might mistake me for a loon. Everyone is alone. Not even sounding right, doesn’t it? Give me, just a time, to understand the pains of being a human and why it won’t go away…

   Sure, most can say that life began through love of two beings, and the conception of life. But how certain can it to be just like that at all? A problem, marriage fails, and separation. Not just a special occassion, this being now the norm. And then what, of the child left behind? Pains, and a lot more…

   Your boyfriend/girlfriend… i must apologize first if i should cause you and your ‘loved one’ any harm… how long should you both last? At least a year? Forever? The answer, quite simply, is as long as you both want to. How far could that be? As i said, as long as you both want to. One argument, all that it takes. This sick, twisted notion that you call love is nothing more than gut feelings of sexual desires for the other being.

   Even more depressing, the isolation of those that people call ‘freaks’ and ‘weirdos’. How can you call every human being unique, when there is someone not belonging in? When everyone strives to become like someone else, now where is uniqueness in that? In their effort to be known, what they don’t realize is that they’re just copying someone else’s image.

  But unlike goths or pessimists, i know why am i like this, and i can manipulate that power of sadness into a weapon of great strength. I know, even if i am bound to be alone, i can protect myself, and prove to the world that being alone is much a burden as being famous. At least, through that, i can grow as a different and very much alike human as everyone else…

    A pessimist sees the glass as half-empty, while an optimist sees it as half-full. Someone may view an object as irritating, while for others, beauty. We believe so, that from the moment we are given birth to, we have differences. We view the world as we see it. But we can also imply, that since we have different visions, we have conflicts.

    But what is a vision, anyway? It is our perception of the world around us. Our beliefs. Our fears. Our view of the persons around us. It is what moulds our mental background, the creator of our imagination.

    But we are influenced, still, by the forces around us. We may follow their examples, fall prey to their lies, but we grow nonetheless. It is this contorted practice, of complying to the earthly culture, that we manage to hinder the growth of our spiritual growth. However we may not like it, being influenced, whether good or bad, destroys the notion of us being ourselves.

    Through the countless visions that the world has, it is impossible to know two different beings and not fight. Heck, the price of uniqueness is divertion. And divertion sometimes lead to jealousy, and eventually, conflict. Now, even our visions seem to hinder themselves. But it isn’t necesarrily meant to be…

    Respect. One of the older visions retracting itself to military and gang values. If we have respect, for everyone, we can at least give conflicts an easier death, suffice to say. The path to peace always starts with respect, and through it, understanding. Even if you don’t like someone, at least respect him/her for what he is; a human.

    For me? My only vision; "I have the respect for every other vision, but if that special something is the cause of pain for anyone, i will see to it that vision must be eradicated…"

—-"I’ve got problems, you’ve got problems, everyone’s got problems…"—-

Primarily, when someone asks you what love is, you get all mushy and say, "love is a sweet … love is blind… love is truthful …" No surprise, since it is only natural to normal beings to love and feel being loved. But what if, just maybe, someone is not bound to be loved by anyone?

Incredible as it may seem, love is not all what it looks like. You may hate me for saying this but, for me, as i believe it is, is that, "Love is only a cruel irony for which only the body is taken seriously." If it isn’t like that for you, i’d rather tell you something i found out during my stay here on this earth.

How many times have you realized, that you are looking for something from someone? No, i don’t just mean someone’s overall outlook, or his physical, mental, or spiritual state.  You love someone because you love someone for something.  Always will be, always does. It does seem right in a sense, but once a being is deluded into thinking "nothing can go wrong", he feels that he has no reason for loving her. And that’s where problem starts…

How deep is the love? As shallow as what you have understood it from. Even now, that i seem to fall in love with someone, my mind disperses the thought, because i know better than to succumb to this shallow feeling humans love the most. When we ultimately fall for something because we want to, that is when it is most shallow. A fight? A misunderstanding? Yeah, something as shallow as that can simply destroy what you and your "loved one" has built.

But love is not all that. Despite of what i have said about ‘humanly love’, we can never forget the sacrifice of our Lord for us. That is pure love, no more no less. He died simply because he wants us to be saved. Did that love went to waste? I don’t think so, even though the world does not show it often. So don’t feel bad about me, feeling no love for any human being. At least, you are able to walk your own road, smiling sheepishly and not knowing the horrid truth for ignorance’s sake…

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Eto po ang unang landing zone… get ready…

Waw! Apat na taon din… katatapos lang ng High School at ngayun "high" na naman ako sa College. Marami na rin akong di naalala sa mga nangyari sa akin nong high school. Wala naman siguro akong naconsider na best friend noong high school days ko.. kaya sa tingin ko nice justice ren ano?

Saya dito sa college. Ganun pa rin man ang trato ng tao sa kin (na parang basura), ayus din naman. Mga kakilala, bago. Siguro wala na ako pakelam sa love life ngayon para maging luko-loko sa mga babae, at ba’t hindi, di naman ako gwapo ^_^!!

Siguro ngayon, eh i popost ko one by one ang mga pumapasok sa ulo ko kapag nag-iisa ako. My mind’s sort of doing this wonderful things… thinking about how rotten the culture of humanity is… love, honor, hate, sadness: all distorted by what one sees as the vision of all. eto na yan, ang unang landing ng Jero Warship…